Whenever i turn on my yahoo messenger, it’s not only a tsunami of spam messages from my autistic booter from Austria greets me welcome. Most of the time, i am also bombarded with messages galing sa kung sinu-sinong herodes na kadalasan pag kinakausap ko naman eh mahaba na ang 3 minuto para bitawan ang walang kamatayan at gasgas na linyang – “pa view ka naman ng cam”… “naka-on ba ang webcam mo?” … “magpapa view ka ba ngayon?” and etc.

Hindi ko naman masisi ang mga kolokoy kung yan lang LAGI ang halos alam nilang i-type dahil aminado ako na madalas din naman talaga ako magpa view ng cam sa chatroom NOON.

Walang masama sa ganung pagtatanong. Ang nakakarindi lang ay yung pag sinagot ko na “hindi” o “wala akong cam” o “hindi ako magpapa view” … abah! magtatanong pa ng “bakit?”, “eh kelan pala?”. Amft! @#$%* Halerrr!!! Ano akala nila sa sarili nila?!! Presinto?!! At kelangan ko pa magpaliwanag?!!

Ang nakakainis pa ay kung sino pa ang hindi ko mga close na chat buddies o kaya hindi ko man lang kilala … eh yun pa ang mga maaangas magtanong o makapag mando. Grrr! Kaya madalas para akong rereglahin sa init ng ulo eh. hehehe!

Nways, hindi ko naman nilalahat. May mga araw na nakaka tiempo din ako ng mga makabuluhang chatter. Yun bang kahit papano may natutunan ako sa katangian nila habang nakikipag kwentuhan.

Gusto ko magpasalamat kay Jem Teodoro for allowing me to copy paste a part of our convo kanina. Siempre nagpaalam ako na ibo-blog ko sya.

Wala naman kakaiba sa naka-chat kong ‘to. Kumbaga wala naman bago sa kwento ng buhay nya. Pero ayaw ko lang palampasin ang pagkakataon para express ang paghanga ko sa kanya lalo na sa pagpili nya ng tamang daan para kahit papano eh maiba naman at umangat ng kahit konti ang buhay niya.

Here’s an excerpt of our chat convo:

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[04:August:] jemteodoro: so what makes you busy? aside from updating ur blog
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: a lot
[04:August:] jemteodoro: like what?
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: i am a single mom
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: so i manage the whole world. **
[04:August:] jemteodoro: really?
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: i carry the whole world. **
[04:August:] jemteodoro: im proud of you
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: lols
[04:August:] jemteodoro: ur like my mom in a way
 [04:August:] intrepid_maruja: single mom?
[04:August:] jemteodoro: i came from a broken family
[04:August:] jemteodoro: yes
 [04:August:] intrepid_maruja: uh huh
 [04:August:] intrepid_maruja: how many wounded lambs?
 [04:August:] jemteodoro: 4
[04:August:] jemteodoro: im the 3rd
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: ahh
[04:August:] jemteodoro: but im only one who manage to finish my studies
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: what happen?
[04:August:] jemteodoro: nagloko silang lhat
[04:August:] jemteodoro: early marriage
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: how are they doing now?
[04:August:] jemteodoro: and some got addicted to drugs
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: sorry to hear that
[04:August:] jemteodoro: its ok
[04:August:] jemteodoro: that’s life
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: life is what we maketh
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: tayo lang naman din ang may kagagawan. our choices.
[04:August:] jemteodoro: that’s why i choose to finish my studies
[04:August:] jemteodoro: ur ryt
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: thats great!
[04:August:] jemteodoro: and now im working as System Administrator
[04:August:] jemteodoro: an IT
[04:August:] intrepid_maruja: bravo!

(** drama ko. amp! lols!)

Jem my friend, let me share to you one of my favorite poem from William Ernest Henley sana magustuhan mo ‘to. Parang bagay eh. :D Madalas ko rin ‘tong basahin pag minsan pinanghihinaan ako ng loob.

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

** invictus: latin word for “unconquered”